August 2000
INSIDE
(My response to someone commenting on my lack of ability to make eye contact.)
Please don’t look at me.
I’m not what you think you see.
There’s less here than you can believe.
I can’t look at you.
My eyes might not lie…
They might just reveal
that thing my soul needs most
To conceal.
Over there. Not here.
Here is too close.
Look where I’m looking –
There’s your safe place.
Watch me from a distance
While I guard this space.
I know that you feel like
You’re missing something now –
But there is nothing to miss.
There is nothing where
You would look anyhow.
It is best this way.
Perhaps you will imagine well.
Better, it is, for you to believe
There was something there–
Than to look and see
There was nothing at all!
And if you looked and you saw
There was nothing to see –
Don’t you see?
That is why I hide.
You can pretend there were
Great and Beautiful things–
If you could see them–
Inside.